far away

I can't clearly picture that less than a year from now I'm actually graduating. That wether I like it or not I'll be thrown into the "real world". A world without my clinical instructors and professors who has given me the lessons, hardships, eyebags, self confidence and doubt. I will be finally relived from overnight case presentations, surprised quizzes, nerve wracking practicals and terrible pseudo finals/ NCLEX exams.

There in an inevitable fact that next year I might (fortunately) have the license to kill or cure or take care of somebody. The thing is, those facts still hasn't dawn into me, until now (somehow). I'm uncertain of what will happen to me without them. I unconsciously attached my self to the four walls of school, enjoyed the hand sanitizer of st. lukes and endured (and understood) the smell and condition of the government hospitals. My comfort has already grown its deep roots within those places and taking it out without the possibility of killing of a part of me is impossible.

I might be just getting too paranoid. Its still a bit far away. For now I still have to review for my finals, continue my thesis and prepare for the boards. But I can't help thinking about it. :)